Why is Rock/metal my lifestye?

I been asked this question time and time over. Well my life isn't necesarily about the music I have grown to love so much. My music does influence a bit (I be lying if I said it does not) how I conduct my everyday life. This form of music gives me closure, spirit, and strength for me. Whenever I am sad or happy or just energetic It provides all these feelings and emotions. Ever since I was kid my life was based on stricky video games. Until I was 13 years old I discovered heavy metal music. What got my into this was watching video's from groups like Metallica, Motley Crue, Megadeth, ect.. These bands were playing this extreme form of music and I seen them all banging their heads and it just looked like to me they were all having a fun time. This form of music quickly grew on me and gave me a life view I could have never imagined then. Before then I did have much of a life, no direction, or anything to live for. This music had this bond on me which is one like no other I cannot describe until this day. It helped me pave the way for how I wanted to be seen by others. This music made me feel like I was part of something. Most people when I was in school were listening to pop, rap, or other extreme media friendly music. The music does influence the way I do dress at times. At school I would be the only one with a Slayer or Megadeth shirt. People would look at me in schock because I would also wear all black and this helped made me stand out. I didn't just want to be like everyone else back at school. I back then had problem fitting in with the crowd then and until then I was always the kid who wanted to belong to that crowd. After I found this new direction I said I want to be a leader of something , NOT a follower. For the most part in school this lifestyle which I lived by wasn't acceptable to others. Mainly it was considered satanic or considered obscene. As years went by I eventually found others who accept my vision and from then on I found my own crowd of those who wanted my friendship. I wanted to be known for being myself and thats what I always will be from here on in. Metal lifestyle to me means staying true yourself in both heart and soul and to not be a follower.